My mom has asked my brother Pat and I to write up a factual account of her appointment at Beckman Eye Clinic (link) at UCSF yesterday. Below are our collective notes.
We arrived at UCSF Vision Center for an 11:30 appointment. While waiting we were told how the day would progress. There was a sign in / registration period, initial screening, a sonogram on both eyes, photography of both eyes and two in-depth consultations one with the Fellow of the clinic and one with Dr. O’Brien the clinic lead.
Mom, Patrick and I were extremely impressed with the level of care. Everyone was exceptional, from the receptionist to Dr. O’Brien. I cannot stress this enough. We were so impressed with their depth of knowledge and attention to mom’s care. Mom described it as sensing a feeling of hope upon entering the clinic.
The initial interaction was a simple eye test, some health history and then dilation. After Mom’s eyes were dilated we sat and waited in a room for the sonogram. The sonogram technician had been there doing this one task for nearly 20 years. She was operating with a brand new machine which took sonogram digital movie file of her eyes. She was able to measure the width, length, and depth of the tumor inside mom’s right eye. She was very gentle with mom, attentive and answered the litany of questions we came up with. This sonogram was much less invasive than the one she got in Montreal. A second set of sonograms with the same technician was able to measure depth and density of the tumor. This set confirmed that indeed the mass in mom’s right eye was a tumor. About halfway through the sonogram Pat showed up and spent the rest of the day with us. The sonogram lasted over an hour, and mom was a trooper through the whole thing. By the time we finished with the sonogram it was close to 3pm and we had our first consultation.
This consultation was with Dr. Tsai, the clinic Fellow. Dr. Tsai was sensational. He started with, “I understand you were a Chaplain …. , thank you for your work!” He confirmed that Mom indeed has a cancerous tumor, diagnosed as ocular melanoma and he gave mom great information. Things like
- Melanoma is a cancer of the body’s melanin cells (cells containing color or pigment), and it not just skin cancer.
- 6 people in a 1,000,000 are afflicted with ocular melanoma
- Nothing about mom’s genetics or lifestyle can specifically be attributable to the occurrence of this cancer
- There are two centers in the US that treat this; UCSF and Harvard
- There are three main treatment options 1) removal of the eye, phased proton radiation, and a plaque radiation. This clinic specializes in phased proton radiation.
- He also confirmed that there is a spot on mom’s left eye which is a birthmark (also called a nevis). It is unlikely that this birthmark is cancerous, and the doctors state that there is an exceedingly low chance of a patient developing cancer in one eye after having cancer in the other. Although it is technically possible, Dr. O’Brien, the chief physician at this clinic has never seen a patient in her career where this has happened.
- The tumor in mom’s right eye is classified as ‘big’ for two reasons. It is long and it is thick (about the size of a chick-pea). For comparison the eye is about the size of a quarter.
- Due to the size of the tumor, the plaque treatment is not possible.
- The phased photon treatment has about a 50% chance of killing the tumor, due to its size. The risks are minimal, but there are potential side effects.
- The potential side effects are: 1)dry eye 2)damage to the optic nerve 3)glaucoma (a painful condition of increased pressure behind the eye).
- If the radiation treatment does not sufficiently kill the tumor, the doctor’s will remove her eye and replace it with a prosthesis.
- There was no way of estimating or knowing if her eyesight will return after the treatment.
Overall, this is positive news for several reasons: 1)Mom is at one of two clinics in the country that treat this kind of cancer. Patients come from all over the US for treatment here. 2)the eye, like the brain is unique in that it is isolated and protected from the rest of the body, dramatically reducing the chance that the cancer will spread.
Mom has decided to pursue proton radiation treatments. The clinic schedules these radiation treatments every four to six weeks, and while there is no urgent reason to begin the radiation therapy, Mom has decided to receive the treatments the week of Aug 6. She are several steps to prepare the treatments, including chest x-ray, MRI, blood tests and several pre-operational appointments in the next two weeks. She will then have a preparatory surgery to place markers on her eye in order to focus the radiation at the tumor. The surgery requires a general anesthetic and she will stay in the hospital for one night of recovery. The radiation therapy is scheduled for two weeks after the surgery in order to let her eye recover from the surgery.
The radiation therapy will occur over four days at UC Davis. Each treatment requires a two hour visit at the hospital, but she is only exposed to the radiation for less than two minutes each time.
She will then see Dr. O’Brien at the clinic for follow ups every six months. There was no time element for how long the follow ups would continue.
10 comments:
Leni, you dear, sweet woman, Each difficult step in this journey has revealed more. Thank you for keeping us informed. The latest, I read, offers hope. I realize there are still hurdles ahead, but Thank God for hope! Love, Gayiel
Leni,
It is wonderful to hear the hope that the doctors have given you. We continue praying that all goes well with the best care you get. We love you and you are really brave and we know that you can handle this. We are so proud of your decisions. This is great news. Ethel is helping me on the computer. We love you good night dear, Mom
Good morning Leni,
I have to share with you some of the thoughts and feelings I have been having while processing this journey with you. First and most importantly there are no words to express the joy I felt with the news of your left eye's birth defect. I can't imagine the news of any other birth defect being greeted with such joy and gratitude for this indeed indicates the gift of sight for grandchildren, children, reltionships, nature and all the visual beauty of our world. For this news we are all so grateful.
Later that night I awoke at four in the morning struggling to imagine if you would be able to drive your car and how would you compensate for independence with other chores. I was so stressed I could not sleep and finally told myself that this was great news the other skills could be learned and I went to sleep.
In the morning when I came upstairs I went to the sink to fix my morning cup of tea as is my ritual. I was looking out the window when the little african violets you gave me for my birthday 7 or 8 years ago caught my eye. You see during the kitchen remodel for Kristi's wedding the plants were all seriously neglected and I actually lost one of the three plants you gave me. The remaining two Karl regularly wanted me to throw out as they looked so hopeless. But on the morning after we heard your news I found one fragile but beautiful open blossom in the shade of purple and lavender that always reminds me of you. And I knew this to be a sign that life would not only blossom for you but continue to greet the world's beauty with the courage and grace you so genuinely live your life.
You know how much the sunflower has represented Larissa to me since her death and now I know the beutiful fragile elegant african violet will be your flower to me.
I know that with all the challenges you are facing that God is blessing you not only with gifted resources but resources close to home that you might have the presence of family around you as you pursue your health needs. It is through your journey Leni that we continue to see evidence of the miracles He is blessing you with both big and small.
Thank you for the laughter of your fall and the gift of humor, the gratitude of medical staff who find the knowledge to care for our bodies and the love of family and friends who lift us up when we are in need. It is an honor to share with you this amazing experience. Please know the opportunities for conversation you have given us to appreciate the beauty we see with our eyes, the moment of now in our lives to value those we love and the graciousness of a loving God that carries us through our darkest hours. I love you dearly and always, Ethel
Leni--I am praying morning and night for you, including in church, which I think supercharges your prayers! I just heard about your fall--oh my goodness. You are so courageous and surrounded by so much love and hope. . . lean when you need to because we are all here for you. Hugs to you and all your family.
Cindy
Leni--I am praying morning and night for you, including in church, which I think supercharges your prayers! I just heard about your fall--oh my goodness. You are so courageous and surrounded by so much love and hope. . . lean when you need to because we are all here for you. Hugs to you and all your family.
Cindy
Leni, I am speechless at the enormity of all you are living and join my prayers with so many others. I am so grateful you (and your family) are sharing such a personal journey with us. Being is such compassionate and competent hands at UCSF - and hearing words of promise/hope - blessings for sure. As an aside - my father-in-law lost his eye at age 20 and was color blind in the other. He drove for 56 more yrs. accident free. (It was a little scary sometimes.......) Prayers for you and the docs. continue unabated. love, Virginia
Leni, thank you again for your sharing. It is an amazing journey filled with decisions and choices. I thank you for allowing me to be part of your process. I am with you in spirit. May God bless you and keep you in His arms.
Leni - I thank you and your family for keeping your friends informed of your condition and plan of action. I appreciate this. It allows for me to simply offer a loving hug and warm greeting when I see you without the bombardment of questions. I keep you in my daily thoughts and pray for your healing and continued strength and courage. I can not imagine how difficult this process must be for you. You seem to have amazing love and support around you continuously and I believe that makes all the difference in the world. You are truly an amazing woman. I hope you know how loved and respected you are in our community. Lots of love. Tammie S.
i sit here in awe after reading your posts. your strength, perspective and insight have been an inspiration to me since i met you. your love and gentle nature have helped me through times of despair and anguish. and to witness the way in which you are positioning yourself for this aspect of life is amazing. you are a summit of hope and goodwill to everyone you meet, and my only wish is that i can offer you a fraction of the assurance and love that you have given me over the years.
to hear you share your thoughts and feelings through this chapter helps immensely in instilling courage and confidence in those of us who love you. thank you for sharing this.
all my prayers and thoughts are with you Leni.
sincerely,
andy
PS if there is anything i can do, please don't waste a second hesitating to ask. if you need someone to drive your car back, i would gladly do it.
take good care of you,
andy
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